I want to say I put effort into you.

But I can’t.

At the time I started this, it was 2:34,

And when I finish this, it’ll be 2:40ish.

Does this make me a bad writer?

Is this poetry rubbish?

I feel like I’m posting on twitter or facebook, like;

“Hey, what’s my status now?”

And then I refresh,

I open a blank page,

I write how I’m feeling,

Then I tell the world.

Does the world care?

Does the world need to know, should be the question I ask when I write.

Sometimes I think poetry is rubbish, but I just want to get the point across that I can do it.

I like writing about my feelings, it keeps me calm and collected.

Sometimes I look back and wonder if I even had a topic, if I even wanted to say anything in the first place.

I have to constantly reread so I don’t feel dumb, like I went off topic.

But here I am, going off topic. What the hell?

My thoughts are scrambled, and thus this is what happens.

God damnit, brain. What are you doing up there?

The world it looks so down and glum

But why bother looking so down and glum?

Just because the world is a pile of shit doesn’t mean you can’t sit upon a glorious golden throne.

I look inside myself, and know someday I’ll make it there.

Somehow I’m going to claim the throne for myself.

I just need to sort out my goals.

What are my goals?

I have no idea.

But they’re slowly dripping away.

Or are they

Just becoming

Clear?

Giggle, I proclaim

I giggle, for you alone.

Giggle for me, please?

You smile wider,

I can’t help but do the same.

I’m smiling for now.

The sun, it laughs, but when it rains, it pours.

The sun always rises on the same side, why, why does it rise on the same time?

I laugh, overflowing with energy.

Haha, take that!

I  try to keeeeep some semblance of redro

But I can’t

It’s impossible

The power

The future

The energy

It’s all coming to a converging point

Three hundred hours

All happening in one moment

One lifetime of work, falling deeper into despair as I go insane

Haha, take that

Have at it, you fools!

In a while you’ll respect my power.

In just a moment you’ll understand my complete and utter authority.

I will defeat fate, I will conquer all.

For I am the mighty lion.

I am the beastly tiger.

I am the ferocious bear.

I have the mind of a human, the sight of an eagle, the strength of a spider, the power of a gun.

This is it, this is your end. This is the last second you have to say goodbye.

And then in a moment I will destroy your world.

Order is restored.